Stressed
With the exams just 14 days away
No wonder the feeling is starting to get worst
I am glad that it came like now.
So i wont be so stressed up when its the exams!

Online lectures
Assignments
Family
Why do ppl suffer from cancer?
ah gong liver cancer?
ah mah nose cancer?
wai po breast cancer?
mummy cervix cancer cells?
now sanyi found some breast cancer lumps!
How did all these came about?
Stressful life cycle?
Or sleepless nights?

Which reminded me i missed the cervix vaccine NTU offers at a lower price!
I MUST go for the jabs after exams!
I asked dum dum to remind me already
They say is most effective if the jabs are taken before sexual intercourse!
So i better go quick!

Life is just horrible
Am i enjoying everything i am doing?
I hope i am.
I think i am.
Once i made a decision, i will do something willingly
Cos i made the choice!
But i hate making decisions.
And i always make wrong ones.
Leaving ppl hurt.

Today i did a very dumb thing
i parked my car on the wet slope...
to drop mummy and kenji off and i go macs to study
just nice mummy open the car door at a kerb and slope at my carpark
ok thats not the point
i see its raining and wet and i was afraid mummy fall
so i asked.
'can u get off?'
it sounds like i am chasing her off the car
my concern turned into a bad thing
cos i really think its wet and slippery so i asked so if she cant get off i shift the car a bit la!
walao
made me miserable for a whole night cos my concern turned into a bad daughter comment!
FML!
i WASNT rushing to macs
i WASNT chasing mummy off the car
aiya fan zhen to mummy i dont care about anything
makes no difference
she said i didnt care if she got cancer or not
why would she think i dont care?
just cos i nv ask?
now i asked things go wrong
ok i have been rushing her to go for occasional check ups
so i hope i did a good deed
aiya
hope
being my mummy for 21 years
u could read my mind
u could feel family is impt to me


This brings me to the point
That i am alone in shanghai
Alone without them
How?
How can i make it
I need my family and friends
Fucked up sian
Now i REALLY dont feel like going
I can totally see myself sitting there alone in the cold winter pmsing myself
If now i am feeling so badly even tho i am at home in my cosy room
I hate pmsing!
Yes i am pmsing now

On a brighter note
Kenji and his lousy magic tricks
Left me laughing like shit today
He said,
Throw this dice and put it into the box
So normal ppl will put the number nicely facing upwards
So he coverd up the box and said
The eye will see what number u have chosen
Then he opened up the box
Looked at the number i put nicely facing up
And said
See ur number is 4
????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Didnt u LOOK at the number,
then tell me 'ur number is 4?'
at first i really ?????????
Then i duno what happened
I think its DAMM FUNNY!

Dum dum did a sweet thing today
He pei me study today!
Although I wasnt efficient today
I feel that it was sweet
BUT
I cant describe but i feel stressed juggling between family and him.
A simple qsn like
should i eat dinner at home with my family?
should i go out to eat with huan?
or should i just eat tgt with my family and huan?
i cant decide -.-
Ok its my problem...
Huan will say i decide
YA? i am deciding for like 4 other ppl!
what if huan feels uncomfortable eating with my parents?
what if my parents dun feel like having huan around?
what if aiya i duno!

Life's simple pleasures (like dinner)
can be so complicated!

To me,
They are all important!
So why cant we just marry and be 1
so i no need SO MAHFAN

So today me and huan were on the topic
of tong ju
haha
He said we did stay tgt for 1 week what!
ya ONE WEEK
i told him he screw up my daily routine within 1 week le
one more week i going to dulan him liaos
HAHA
ya so he guess the first thing we will quarrel about is over food and meals
i guess that will be true!
hahaha
aiya
i am tired of blogging liaos!