I think i am a TROUBLED girl with a TROUBLED face
Looking at my palm today at work
My main lines are faint...
As faint as my other lines (Fan nao lines)
This is TRUE


Dear XX
Aiya! i dont know how to phrase myself, i just think its very hard to talk to them.
Yes i agree to a certain extent that my mum is cold and 'bo-chap' to many tiny yet significant issues in her life and our lives. There are too many to name but i understand your point. It makes it even harder to approach her to chat about something personal and sensitive.
My dad is... really busy (i guess) He said that all those golfing are entertainment. Customer and supplier relationship. Oh well...
Otherwise, he would try to get home for dinner.
Its just hard (yes, u also mentioned that it is really difficult in a chinese family), and i guess i will never really get to sit down and talk to them about any of my problems any time soon, maybe not even in the future.



Yes i do share my problems with my bf, and i dont think professional counseling is needed (at the moment) as i feel that these are still 'manageable'
I think you would be my great counselor! Actually, i dont think counseling 'works' as actions speak louder than words! the counselor only SAY but if i need to apply it to my own family, and specifically my own life, its really more than words and theory! So i guess advice and encouragement from you really made me feel a lot better! At least i know someone is morally there for me.
I have broken down a few times in front of my bf. Usually my problems now are family, school and work(maybe not so much of career yet) and my relationship with him. Nothing much. So that few times when i couldnt take it, i did rant out everything. It might not have exactly solved the problems, but at least i felt a lot better.
He does give good advice i must say. At least i see things from a different point of view and when i agree with his views, i feel enlightened. And he makes things 'sound' simple and easy to solve so i would feel better at the moment.
On the other hand, my bf always tells me that I 自找麻烦 which is kind of true because i get frustrated over minor things like my parking ticket of $6 today spoilt my whole evening!
Maybe thats why you feel a 'troubled' aura when u were back home a few weeks ago?

Ok a rather simple problem that had been really subconsciously bothering me since yesterday!
I am rather bothered by the fact that my bf gets the same sized ang pow as me.
I feel very 矛盾. Should i be happy that he is of the same 'rank' as me and that my parents likes him? Or should i be jealous? The feeling is like; 'I have been your daughter for 22 years and i get the same amount as someone whom you just got to know for about 1 plus year'
Even if he is my own boyfriend, he is not my husband yet. I feel happy for my bf as this actually somewhat says that my parents like him, but i just got hurt.
Actually i dont really know whats the 'tradition' or is there any rule on this...

my bf's parents has been inviting me to go to their home since a while ago, and they asked me again yesterday (when i saw them as they were picking up my bf from my place) to go over to 拜年. i feel very frustrated that my dad doesnt allow me to go over even for a one day trip and we always quarrel over this.

I have never asked for permission to go over to malaysia after i got together with my bf.

Do you think its a good time to ask for permission to go over to 拜年？

I realised i DO have alot of 'stress' subconsciously bothering me all the time! Maybe it really explains the troubled face u felt!